Monday, July 30, 2012

Time Flies!

How do I only have 8 weeks left?  Back in January when I first found out I was pregnant, September seemed so far away.  I wondered what the summer would be like - what would I look like with a belly?  How will it feel when the baby moves?  Will it be a boy or a girl?  Well, all those questions have been answered.
Now my questions include:  what will he look like?  How painful will childbirth be? What will it feel like to breast feed?  What if I can't do this?

I know those questions and more will be answered soon enough.  While physically I feel like I want time to go faster (my hips hurt, I'm not sleeping super well, I'm tired), mentally I need a few more weeks to get things done!  Most of our spare time has been spent getting the rental property ready and I feel like preparing my own house has not happened.  Oh well, as long as he has a place to sleep and plenty of breast milk, I don't think he'll mind if the nursery isn't quite finished.

Anyway, its time for a belly bump update.  Nothing like looking at a bunch of pictures of yourself to make you feel fat...especially when I look back and think how skinny I was at 12 weeks!  Sorry if the pictures are off - it is impossible to get pictures in the right spot in blogger. 

How far along? 32 Weeks
Total weight gain/loss: 38 pounds.  Since being diagnosed with gestational diabetes (GD) I've actually lost 2 pounds.  I don't feel like I'm eating that much differently, just portion control with the carbs.  The dietician actually keeps telling me I'm not eating enough.  No one can be happy.  She tells me I had gained too much on my first appointment and now she's tell me to eat more.  Go figure.

Maternity clothes? Some of my shirts are getting a little snug - may have to buy some biggers sizes.
Stretch marks? Now starting to get some on the lower part of my belly but my tattoo remains unaffected (its a Jesus fish on the front of my R hip).  Continued accumulation on my hips and thighs..
Sleep: So, so.  I'm up at least once to pee, have to shift a lot to be comfortable and its too hot to sleep with the preggo pillow.
Best moment this week:  an ultrasound today showed that GD is not affecting his growth.  Even though he was a little stubborn and they couldn't get in to measure some of the stuff they wanted, it was nice to know that he looked very healthy.
Miss Anything? Sleeping on my stomach, and now being able to eat what I want without thinking about carb content. 
Movement: Lots!  So much sometimes my whole body shakes.  He likes to sit his little behind right under my ribs and then push it up.  Feeling more knees and elbows vs hands and feet.
Food cravings: Cheese.  And the dietician has recommended ice cream with nuts for my bed time snack - who argues when someone encourages you to eat ice cream?
Anything making you queasy or sick: cigarette smoke
Have you started to show yet: You tell me :-)
Gender: Its a boy!
Labor Signs: No
Belly Button in or out? Still in
Wedding rings on or off? On - my hands swell when I walk for exercise or I get really hot. Its a good thing I don't wear my rings on my ankles :-)
Happy or Moody most of the time: I have my good days and bad days.  If I haven't been sleeping well, I definitely cry VERY easily.  Other days I feel really happy.  My poor husband has to try and guess what kind of day I'm having.
Looking forward to: Getting our rental property DONE.  We have birth class this weekend - not sure if I'm going to feel more or less prepared after it.

The picture doesn't show it very well, but I chopped my hair off.  I went back to my shorter style and I like it so much better.  I don't know what I was thinking trying to grow it out.  I told my stylist to remind me of this attempt the next time I told him I wanted to grow it out again.

GD update:
So I've over the fact that I technically have GD.  I had my pity party in my previous post and am now dealing with it.  Its actually not so bad.  Other than a mild inconvenience of having to wait an hour after meals and measure my blood sugar, I can still eat a lot of things. 

I also get 2 more ultrasounds and have to go in 2x per week for non stress tests - they basically hook me up to a fetal monitor and listen for 20 minutes.  A little inconvenient on my work days (have to go over lunch) but its nice to listen to his strong heart beat.

Had one of the ultrasounds this morning - apparently his arms and legs are measuring in the 88th percentile and his head is "huge" and his belly is skinny (52nd percentile).  So basically he's tall and skinny like his dad with a huge head.  Hopefully that means he is smart too.  But the smally belly means that the GD isn't affecting his growth negatively (meaning he's not building up excess fat in his belly from the sugar).  They estimated his weight at 5lbs 2 oz now but that number can be off by a pound or so.

So, all is good.  My mom was here this weekend and I had my baby shower with my friends here (stay tuned for pics).  We sorted and organized all the baby clothes, cut off tags, and started washing stuff.  So things are coming together.  Less than 8 we go!

Wednesday, July 25, 2012

Mid Week Confessions

Happy Wednesday Friends!  Here we go....

- I pretty much can't put my pants on standing up anymore.  My belly is in the way to lift my leg up and I have no abs anymore.  I also pretty much tripped into my car this morning as I couldn't lift my leg up high enough to clear the car.

- This gestational diabetes diet isn't so bad.  I feel like I get plenty to eat and sometimes have to find extra stuff to fill my carb quota.  The things I miss are more the snacky stuff (chips) and sweets (cheesecake) whenever I want.  I lost 2 pounds in my first week on it.

- I love watching my belly move.  Baby does not like to be squished so whenever I rest my phone, a book or the computer on my belly for any reason he tries to kick it off.

- I am in nesting mode again.  I have a desire to clean and organize everything in my house including the garage.  Whether I will be able to execute all this organization is a whole different story

- So far, I've said I would work up until delivery.  Now I'm thinking I want to take at least a week off (if possible) before the baby is born.  I'm pretty sure I will need the rest.

That's all I got.  Hope you all are having a great week!  I'm looking forward to my second baby shower this weekend with all my friends.  Pics to come....

Tuesday, July 24, 2012

Baby Shower in Montana

While we were in Montana, our family friends Ginger and Abby hosted a baby shower for me.  Here are a few pictures from the event.

These were gifts just from Grandmas (and Aunt Susanna).  It filled the back of the Navigator


The whole group

A book on breastfeeding from Grandma Hall (who is a lactation nurse).  I also got a breast pump and every breast pump accessory I could ever want including about 400 breast pads.

One of the most popular gifts - peek a boo bear.  When you push its foot, it raises its arm and puts the blanket over his face and then lowers it and says peek a boo.  It is super cute.

Virginia playing with peek-a-boo bear

Trenton Thunder shirt from auntie Susanna

A Virginia Tech quilt

We've also started getting a few gifts from friends in the mail.  This is my favorite from the Johnsons in Fredericksburg:

All in all, Baby H is very loved and many people are excited for his arrival.  Can't believe we only have 8 weeks left!

Sunday, July 22, 2012

A prayer for my baby boy

Dear God,

Thank you for my amazing little boy.  Thank you that you are knitting him together perfectly inside of me.  Pregnancy is an amazing thing that only You could have created and I am so thankful to be experiencing it.  Thank you for Your perfect will and Your perfect timing.

Lord I pray that Andrew and I will be good parents.  I pray that we will love our little boy unconditionally.  I pray that our marraige will grow and become stronger as we raise our family.  I pray that we will set a good example of a healthy, Godly relationship for him.  I pray for calmness in the new challenges coming our way and I pray for peace of mind that we are doing okay.   I pray that we would learn from our mistakes and be joyful and thankful for our successes.

I pray that this little boy feels unconditional love, not only from us as parents but also from You. I pray that You will walk with him through life.  I pray that he will learn to rely on You and turn to You in times of trouble.  I pray that he has a servant's heart and will learn compassion for others, be quick to listen and slow to judge.  I pray that he is allowed to make mistakes and, if its Your will, fall away from You so he can understand grace and mercy when you pull him back towards You.  I pray that he truly understands forgiveness. 

I pray that he is adventurous and not afraid to fail and that he finds a passion in life to drive him.  Whether it is sports, academics, music, or missions, I pray that as parents we support him and encourage him to follow his dreams.

Lord I pray for his relationships with others.  I pray that he finds Godly men to mentor him and he creates lasting and deep friendships with others.  I pray that he learns to treat women the way his daddy treats his mommy - with respect and love.  I pray for his wife - that she too can grow up knowing You and that their relationship is glorifying to You.  I pray that he will pass on a legacy to his own children and teach them how to love and serve You.

Most of all I pray that he will simply learn to love You with all his heart, mind and soul and that he finds Jesus as his saviour and friend.   I pray that he learns intimacy with You in prayer and quiet time and is able to feel the nudges that You give him.  I pray that his love for You would be evident in his life and his actions.  I pray that he will be able to lead others towards You in whatever unique way that You provide for him.  

God,  You are amazing.  Thank you for your constant grace and mercy.  Protect my little boy over these next 8 weeks.  I can't wait to meet him.


Wednesday, July 18, 2012

Mid Week Confessions

Happy Wednesday everyone.

For those of you who read my last post, the last couple of days have been much better than Monday.  While I am still quite annoyed at having to check my blood sugar after each meal, I have decided to do this for the week and see them next week and take what happens.  Which brings me to my first confession:

- I am extremely selfish.  I made a big deal about this whole diabetes thing when its all for the health of my little boy.  I can certainly make a few lifestyle changes for 9 more weeks if it means that my baby will be healthy.  I should be willing to do whatever it takes to assure his safety.

- I really want cheesecake right now

- I need a vacation from my vacation.  Montana was fun but it was just a lot of travel.  And my day off on Monday was not a good day.  This weekend is going to be at the Tacoma house.

- I am giving up on growing out my hair.  I have an appointment on Saturday and am going to chop it back off.  I saw pictures from my shower and it is so shaggy.  I think that it will actually be lower maintenance shorter - it takes too long to blow dry right now and it looks terrible.  Since I made this decision, I can't wait for Saturday!

That's all I got today kids.  I'm so tired.  Hope everyone is having a great week.

Monday, July 16, 2012

Holy Emotional Breakdown Batman!

Happy Monday Friends!

It has not been such a happy Monday for me.  So, this is a venting post - please feel free to not read it but its helpful for me to just get this stuff out sometimes.

About 3 weeks ago, I did a glucose tolerance test.  This is standard for pregnant women to check for gestational diabetes between 24 and 28 weeks.  I went to a lab while fasting, they took blood, made me drink a sugar drink (which was not pleasant), take more blood at one hour, and then take blood again two hours later.

My results:  my fasting blood sugar was 2 points over normal, my others were well within normal limits.  According to my doctors office, they "have to treat me like I have gestational diabetes" and referred me to the diabetes counselor and nutritionist.  I cried when I got the news.  I talked to my midwife - "Do I really have to do this?  I was only 2 points over the fasting test - I ate pad thai the night before."  She suggested that I at least talk to them and best case scenario, my blood sugar tests normal and I don't have to check often and can report numbers to her.

So, I called to schedule the appointment that week.  The lady on the phone kept saying "are you sure you can't come in next week?" which was the week we were in Montana.  I said "I'm on vacation, I won't be in the state so no, my first availability is Monday the 16th".  So, I was scheduled for this morning.

So, after a long vacation, a 12 hour drive yesterday to get home, I got up this morning to go to my appointment.  I was not in a good mood since I didn't really feel like I should have to do this anyway.  I started crying about the first minute that I got into the office.  Likely a combo of fatigue, hormones, anger, hormones, and hormones.  This nutritionist starts explaining to me how the body processes sugar and insulin and how it can affect the baby.  So, I'm a PT - I've taken anatomy and physiology multiple times now and have a general idea of how the human body works.  I have a freaking doctorate degree.  So this lady talking to me like I'm a five year old is not helping things.  Then she tells me the risk factors - the two (of 6 that I meet) are I'm over 25 (can't control that - at 25 I was just finishing grad school - not the time to have a baby) and I was overweight before pregnancy.

Now, I am well aware that I was a good 20 pounds heavier that I wanted to be before I got pregnant.  I had lost about 15 pounds (my first year of marraige weight) on Weight Watchers before we started trying to get pregnant.  But, all the books recommended not dieting while trying to conceive, and then I had quit running thinking that was preventing me from getting pregnant, and then the holidays rolled around so I gained the 15 back. 

Then she tells me that I've gained more during pregnancy than I should and I need to slow that down. 
She also tells me that I have a 2 in 3 chance of having gestational diabetes in my next pregancy and a 50% chance of developing type II diabetes in the next 10 years.  Thanks lady for not only calling me fat, but now making me feel terrible about it. Is anyone else not liking this lady?

Then, as I'm crying in her office (and also apologizing for crying because I hate crying in front of people especially strangers) she asks me about my stress level.  I told her about our Tacoma house which stresses me out but mostly this crying is due to hormones and fatigue and the fact that I have to measure my freaking blood sugar multiple times a day.  And she says "well, stress can also increase your blood sugar levels."  Because that statement is extremely helpful given that I am bawling in your office about my stinking 2 points over normal limits.

So we tested my blood (technically not an hour after I had eaten the english muffin with peanut butter in the car after my appointment) and it was fine.  I learned how to poke myself with the lancet and use the meter (all quite easy to do).  I am supposed to measure my blood an hour after I eat breakfast, lunch, and dinner.  With my job, this is not so easy.  I see patients back to back all day long with no predictable breaks.  I can probably step away from a patient for a minute to check my sugar its just inconvenient to both me and my patient.  I'm also supposed to have a snack in the morning and afternoon.  Again, not something I can do on a predictable basis. 

Then I got the lecture on what foods are okay and how much I should be eating etc.   Most of it I already knew but she gave me sample meal/snack ideas which will come in handy.

So I have to meet with them again next Monday (lets add more appointments to my day off - I already have an OB appointment that day).

I left her office and bawled.  Literally sat in my car and cried for almost 10 minutes before I could pull myself together and drive (to the pharmacy to get more lancets and test strips for my glucose meter).  I talked to my mom and cried, I talked to my husband and cried.  Then I ran some errands and came home where I have been crying off and on for most of the day.

My blood sugars after lunch were fine.  My big test will be the fasting test tomorrow morning which is the one they are "worried" about.  I'm hoping that everything will be normal all week - then I want to walk into that lady's office and tell them there is nothing wrong with me.  If that is the case I will have a serious talk with my midwife about whether I really need to stress about this - because I seriously think that the emotional stress that I have been going through today is worse for my baby than my stupid blood sugar.

So folks, that has been my not so happy day.  I'd take any advice out there from moms who have been through GD or a similar scenario as to what I've been through.

Thursday, July 12, 2012

Hot hot hot!

Hi Friends!  A quick note from vacation.  Montana is awesome.  I never appreciated it while I lived here but when I come back to visit I love it more every time.  We are staying in Somers which is a small town on the northwest side of Flathead Lake.

Trivia fact:  Flathead lake is the largest fresh water lake west of the Mississippi river.

The trip has been great except it has been SO HOT!!  Unfortunately, the lake house we are renting does not have AC.  The upstairs main room has a vaulted ceiling and gets all the morning sun and it is currently 83 degrees indoors and 93 degrees outside.  I chose the basement bedroom for Andrew and I (which is about 10 degrees cooler than the upstairs).  The bed is full vs a king upstairs and Andrew barely fits on it but its well worth the lower temperature.

We were in Glacier National Park yesterday and it was hot there too.  We took one of the famous "Red Bus Jammer Tour" which was awesome but at one point were stopped on the Going to the Sun Road for about 30 minutes baking in the sun.  I thought I might get heat stroke.  Pregnant ladies and sun do not make a good combo.  I was chugging water but that just made me have to pee more often.

My poor ankles....the 11 hour drive to Great Falls caused quite a bit of swelling.  They didn't go down much overnight and then we had to sit at church in 95 degree weather with no AC.  The service of course was extra long (a new pastor was getting ordained and installed) and by the end I thought that my sandals were going to start cutting off the circulation in my toes.  My feet have never been so swollen and stiff.  It was almost painful..

They haven't gotten as bad the rest of the week and it helps to elevate them at the end of the night.   I also think I'm acclimating a little to the warm weather as I don't feel nearly as uncomfortable sitting in the living room at 83 degrees than I did earlier in the week.

Still,  I'm thankful for living in Seattle where the highs generally stay in the high 70s and where we have a portable AC unit for our room to help sleep.  We head back to Great Falls tomorrow (thankfully my parents have AC) and my baby shower is on Saturday.  I'm so excited!

I have some great pictures of Glacier to post - it is such a beautiful place and I encourage everyone to visit if you ever get a chance.

Wednesday, July 4, 2012

Midweek Confessions

Yay!  I finally remembered/have time to do some confessions!  Happy Fourth of July everyone!

- Maybe I'm just old, but I find fireworks slightly annoying these days.  Especially the ones that are just loud and make noise and don't light up.  As for the big shows, they are pretty but not worth staying up late fighting traffic, parking and crowds.  Okay, maybe I'm old.

- I pooped 4 days in a row this week.  I never thought I'd be so proud of my digestive system.  Those of you who have been pregnant understand.  For those of you who haven't, sorry for the TMI moment.

- My new favorite hobby may be sanding things.  I've been using a power sander to strip the cabinets at our rental property and it is so much fun!  I kind of want to buy one now....

- I am very unprepared for vacation - normally I have the house cleaned and I am half packed by this time.  My house is half clean, I have yet to pull out a suitcase or think about what I need to take on this trip.

- I dread holiday weeks - I have to work 11 hour days at work which are usually full schedules.  By the end of the week, I am usually exhausted. This week add in all our spare time at the rental house, plus company coming and prepping for vacation and I may not make it through Friday. 

Summer has officially started in Seattle.  This next week is supposed to be sunny and in the 70s.  I am headed to Montana where it will be sunny and in the 80's - I'm looking forward to sitting on Flathead Lake with a cold drink and a good book.  I'm also looking forward to my first baby shower!  I will be sure to post pictures.

Monday, July 2, 2012

Third Trimester!

I can't believe I only have 12 weeks until I meet this little man!  As I feel more and more kicks (and a few barrel rolls) I wonder more about what my baby will be like.

I've officially transitioned into the 3rd trimester.  They say the fatigue returns this trimester and boy do I feel it - especially if I don't get enough sleep at night.  We've been super busy the last couple of weeks (hence my lack of blogging) - work is busy and we've been spending a lot of time at the rental property.  Fortunately, things are really coming together down there and I'm hopeful we will have it ready to go by the end of the month.    On a side note - I have discovered my new favorite power tool.  The orbital sander.  We are repainting the cabinets and interior doors in the house and I am having a blast using the sander to take off layers of paint.  So much fun.

But here is the updated belly bump picture.  I took the 28 week picture last night - I feel like my belly is ginormous at night after I've been on my feet all day and eaten and hence it looks like I've had a tone of growth compared to last month.  I feel like my belly is  much smaller this morning. None the less, here you go!

How far along? 28 Weeks
Total weight gain/loss: I see the doctor today and I'm afraid to step on the scale.  Probably around 30 pounds :-(  I know that every woman is different and gains weight differently but I have definitely gained a lot in my legs (my natural place to carry weight) and is makes me sad.  I feel like I make good food choices for the most part but am not afraid to indulge on occasion.  Exercise is getting harder as my hips are starting to hurt more and I fatigue a lot faster.

Maternity clothes? couldn't get by without them.
Stretch marks? Still none on the belly, but they continue to accumulate on my hips and thighs.
Sleep: Good for the most part especially when Andrew isn't hogging the bed.  By the end of the work week after 4 ten hour days I can usually fall asleep by 9 pm
Best moment this week: Andrew had his head on my stomach and the baby was kicking him over and over again.  It was so cute.
Miss Anything? Sleeping on my stomach.  And the ability to have a beer after a hard days work at the house.
Movement: I can tell he's getting bigger as I feel kicks on both sides of my stomach at the same time.  And I'm starting to feel more rolls versus kicks.
Food cravings: Greek yogurt with fresh fruit and granola.  I think I had it almost every day for lunch.  Also, Capn Crunch cereal was on sale.  Its yummy.
Anything making you queasy or sick: cigarette smoke
Have you started to show yet: Yep
Gender: Its a boy!
Labor Signs: No
Belly Button in or out? Still in
Wedding rings on or off? On - my hands swell when I walk for exercise or I get really hot.  Its a good thing I don't wear my rings on my ankles :-)
Happy or Moody most of the time: It varies.  Because of how busy we've been and the rental house is stressing me out, I get so overwhelmed and just cry.  We were riding down to Tacoma last week and I was venting to Andrew about stuff going on at work, etc and I just started sobbing.  Andrew said "What's wrong?" and I said "I just feel so overwhelmed and stressed out" and he said "What is overwhelming you?" and I said "I'm HAVING A BABY!"  Of course, it was that on top of everything.  Fortunately, vacation is next week and I can't wait!

Looking forward to: Vacation in Montana and sitting on Flathead lake.  Also, have baby showers coming up this month and I can't wait to celebrate with my friends.

You may also notice in the pictures that my hair is getting longer and longer.  Its driving me nuts but I'm on a quest to grow it long so that when I don't have time to shower as a new mom then I can just throw it in a pony tail.  I can get it into a short stubby ponytail now but I'm so tempted to chop it off sometimes. 

Okay friends, I'm not sure if I will be blogging again before or during vacation.  If not, hope everyone has a great fourth of July!